While surfing around today, I came across an article on the New Nation talking about Changing your relationship with money
Well, money, today I’m looking at talking about relationship with money. I’ve often had problems with money, and I just can’t seem to reach deep inside of me to find out what is causing me so much problems with it. Looking at my debts, boy I wonder if I’ll ever live for another day. It’s already starting to eat into my life.
I tried asking my mum about her relationship with my dad when she was pregnant with me, did she quarrelled with my dad over money and so on, she didn’t because she was working to supplement income at home. Next was childhood, I remembered my dad giving me a lot of them when I was just a little kid, wanted to buy a toy paratrooper that costs only a few cents, what my dad gave was almost a dollar, a neighbour of mine helped me by making sure that I wasn’t cheated by the retailer. And in school, I remembered having some extra money that I used to pay some rich kid in school who has a hand-held game device just to play on it, my parents couldn’t afford to buy one for me. And then came working life, there just isn’t enough, for the work done and contributions, I just wasn’t given what I thought I’m worth, mainly because I don’t have higer qualifications beyond high school (secondary school). Now… today’s post just show me something that I need to change in my mindset. YAY! but the bad news is, I’m still working… and my salary isn’t enough for me, because most of it goes into paying off my credit card and overdraft facility, I used to have a good job, paying the banks was of no problem, until I quit my job to venture on my own, it failed due to poor capitalisation, and now my credit cards are almost maxed while my overdraft is totally maxed beyond hope. Now I have less than $10 in my savings account, and pay day is 7 days more to go.
I’m still lost in trying to find out what kind of a relationship I’m having to money. I am willing to give it out for a good cause, anonymously but that does not spare me the burden of toiling to pay my debts, and still I’m nowhere near clearing them. What is the unconscious beliefs that repels money from me? I’m atheist, but I do understand about the giving of a portion of your income, 10% to g_d so well, even if I’m giving the 10, there is an element of fear within me, that is calls from the banks, I had to narrow it down to 1% to be able to give freely without fear or grudges, is that a stumbling block?Read Full Post | Make a Comment ( None so far )